AND SHE'S OFF.

So there has been a lot going on in my world lately. I have started a diet, and I don’t mean a little “I want to lose 5 lbs” diet, I am talking a life changing, “I’m going to be skinny once and for all” diet. I honestly can’t wait until people see me and say under their breath, “that girl needs to go eat a burrito, she is way too skinny” won’t it be GREAT! If you don’t know about my family history, I will fill you in. We are fatties! Not just the typical American family, I mean we break chairs at every family get together. I decided at a very young age that I was not going to fall into the trap of obesity. I set a weight for myself (140lbs) and I vowed that if I ever got over that then I would just stop eating until I was back to my normal weight. Well, that strategy worked great throughout school, but it seems to be a little tougher to keep up with now. I am way less active than I once was and way too busy to work out like I use to. Plus, I’m engaged and even though this might sound really bad, I have to be honest. I truly do believe that Kevin loves me for who I am not what I look like. So needless to say I don’t have guys to motivate me to look my best anymore. Of course I want to look good for Kevin, but it’s different now, it’s like we have a deeper relationship then me needing to worry about my belly that has rolls when I sit down. My brother is actually the only guy that really motivates me to lose this extra weight, not to impress him, but because he struggles with his weight way worse then I do and if he can get healthy and lose like 5,000 lbs, ok that’s an extreme over statement, but the point is the same. If he can do it, then I can do it. I am sure that this seems a little crazy to everyone because it’s not like I am one of those big girls that need to lose 100lbs or even one of those girls that wear clothing that needs to be 2 or 3 sizes bigger just so people can’t see my rolls. I am just one of those girls that constantly stay 15 or 20 lbs over what I should be and it seriously makes me feel like the fattest person in the world. So I’m not going to let it hold me back anymore. No more invites to the lake where I have to say no because I don’t want to wear a swim suit in public an no more nights that I don’t go out because I am worried that I can’t keep up with all my hot little friends. Just wait, before long, I’m going to be one of those hot little girls parading around like…”Hell yes, I’m skinny, just look at me!”
I know myself very well and I know that if I don’t have something to hold me accountable I will never do this. So, I’m going to blog my progress, hopefully not really long, novel type entries, but just little ones saying if I have lost any or if I ate right and worked out.
There seems to be lots of other stuff going on right now, but since this is already a long entry, I figure I’ll share the rest later.